Hm

Tori and Jamie came over yesterday. Chilled with Jess, Jules, and Jamie. Ryan, Kyle, and Mike came around the pines and Sal came out too. We couldn't get the alchy so that kinda sucked. I got into this blowout on the phone with my mom in the middle of the street and ended up screaming at her and just crying on the side of the road. I met up with everyone at the baseball field. We chilled, I told Jess what happened. She gave me that Jess talk, which she usually gives me but I respect it because it gives me some perspective and helps me out. She told me how it's good I'm not like my mother and even though the way I get is like a strain on my friends, well at least Billy and her as she said, they are happy that I'm strong enough to deal with it and not reduce myself with subtances and shit. Not those exact words but the same meaning. Then my sister called me and I started crying again while I told her and shit. I notice I'm at my breaking point with this shit. The same pointless bullshit telling me I'm screwing up and how I get away with murder and I'm not a good kid and shit. After I talked to my sister Jess found me and gave me a hug and shit. I just thought a lot about Billy and Gina and how they are there for me and it made me, idk "break" more. And I ended up sending "I love you" texts to them. Along the lines of it at least. I pulled myself together and it took me a while to actually get back into having fun but I enjoyed my night and I know everyone else enjoyed theres. We made videos of stupid shit and had fun. Jess, Tori and Jamie slept over. It was all good fun with them.